Problems with organizations

So it seemed rather pointless to write last week considering I had nothing to report. I do have some things to report this week though. I didn't do a whole lot, but I did some more in depth searching on the volunteer organizations that I had a list of. I started with a list of about fifty and am now down to about thirteen. The problem I've been coming into is that all of these organizations cater to those who want to go on vacation and do a little bit of service while they are at it. So therefore they charge a good some of money and usually seem to only have projects set up for certain points in the summer and stick to a very strict schedule. This, as you can imagine, is not conducive to my plans nor my funds. Besides they don't seem to be exactly what I'm looking for. This is more complicated than I anticipated. I still have a few phone numbers I'm going to try, though I don't have high hopes. It seems a bit like a lot of things in my life right now are cutting down my high hopes. In some senses I think that it can be good if those hopes are directed towards something irrational or if those hopes are causing you undue stress. Letting go can break the heart sometimes if you have set you heart on something in particular and that something turns out to not be possible at the present time. Hopes are essential in our lives because they motivate and inspire and encourage us, but we need to learn to be flexible sometimes when God throws us those curve balls. Sometimes it may even require some matrix moves. If we can learn to roll with the punches things always turn out how they are supposed to even if they are not what we planned or may have thought we wanted. On the other hand we may get exactly what we wanted but it just required us to go about it a way we never would have dreamed we needed to. Sometimes it just boils down to patience and a willingness to trust God and see where he takes things. I know this can be scary especially for those who like the security of a plan. Well, be comforted in the knowledge that there is a plan. It just may not be yours. I have purposely placed few constraints on myself this trip so that I won't tie God's hands, but rather so he can guide me to where I might be the best tool in his hands. It is looking like this volunteer thing may have to fall more into His hands than I anticipated. I will continue to do my part in searching, but it may have to come down to small services for individuals here and there that I come into contact with. I will serve in whatever capacity I am capable of serving in.